A Heartfelt Loss

I was due any day, had put on weight, At an alarming rate, But when I mentioned to my gynae., That my babies kicks were oh so tiny, Not like a good healthy kick, He or she should give mummy, In my tummy. What can I say, it’s a lazy baby, he said, No high tech scans like today, Many years ago, told me to rest in bed. Two days later my waters broke at two In the morning, Nothing boring About my family, they were phoned And a multitude of them arrived All thought part of me they owned, But no labour pains for six hours we waited, So was prepared for theatre and a Caesar Not to worry, a nice relaxing sleep, my dear! Woke up a few hours later – where is my baby, My mother and aunt in tears, said maybe They will bring him in later, a beautiful Blue eyed baby boy, but the specialist Called my mom, and my ex husband, The baby was sick and was rushed to the Best hospital in Johannesburg, I was stunned And had never heard of Spina Bifida Which was what my baby was inflicted with. My dad followed the ambulance and The he was put in the Intensive Care, This is not fair, I want to also be there! But a Caesarean years ago was no joke, I was not strong enough to get up. I was given medication to sleep, Nothing worked on me, I wanted to die, If I couldn’t see and hear by baby cry, My father and ex-husband were there Every day, Tried hard to soften what they had to say, The baby was going to die, and I hadn’t seen him My eyes continually filled with tears to the brim, He died, On the fifth day after he was born, He was christened Alan George, I was left forlorn, And wanted to see no-one, could not Look at a pregnant woman without Bursting into tears! I became pregnant six months later and had An Amniocentesis procedure, the laboratory Phoned me three weeks later, everything was A hundred percent, God was good, He is good, And always has been to me! He chose Alan-George to be an angel. My Baby boy Ricky was born soon after, I held him in my arms and told him about His baby brother, There couldn’t have been a happier mum than me My beautiful wonderful healthy son Was a treasure! Six months later I got divorced Things went horribly wrong, but ten years later Met up with the love of my life, Elias, we had gone Out twenty years ago, each of us a had a son, We became the happiest family ever, in the End love conquers all, and love won!