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Keep It Real:If I Could Cry

if i maurice yvonne could cry i’d spread my tears eternal over your  ( say it, dare to be bold) naked body (then she could taste your pain) but i can’t shed tears anymore (tell her why) (you need her to know) (no i can't she'll leave me) (get out of my head) my mind beats differently now i have seen the doctor i'm not well...kind of (you're blowing it) (can't you see her face) (quiet i'm trying to think) it's not like a normal doctor if i could feel (you use to. you did) i would touch you with the hands of a silk maker gentle and caring and with purpose. the doctor. my physiatrist. i was diagnosed as bipolar  (there you got it out) (was that so hard?) leave me alone will you no i'm sorry not you they gave me drugs  i don't feel like i use to not the mountain not the waterfall (give it a break just speak plain) (ok yes i will) i can't cry any more i have no sex drive it's the pills if i... oh my God  if i... i would and more i’d run beyond to hold you i would the pills they make me docile you'll laugh when you hear this because you are always with me (don't get all mushy with her) i miss you  (ok bud you did it) (let's just move on) i have no answers, but i know what you're feeling you want us to be romantic way back (i can't listen to this) (i am out of here) before being medicated i was passionate  so very passionate not anymore  i'll tell you though something’s got to give my god  something’s got to give.
Maurice Yvonne September 11 2014

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Date: 2/15/2016 6:51:00 PM
How does a physiatrist fit into this poem?
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Date: 5/6/2015 3:42:00 AM
Congratulations on your win! :) Keep it up pal!
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Date: 5/2/2015 7:58:00 AM
OK, is this a discussion between Maurice and Armand? Amazing write, well earned top spot and a must read again 7
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Date: 5/2/2015 7:45:00 AM
OK, is this dialogue between Maurice and Armand?? Terrific write, a definite must read again and a seven. congrats
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Date: 5/1/2015 7:16:00 AM
Sorry Maurice. I typed your name as Armand.
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Date: 5/1/2015 7:14:00 AM
Wonderful write Armand! Very powerful! Congrats on your win.
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Date: 5/1/2015 4:44:00 AM
Dropping back with my congrats Armand - an outstanding poem well deserving of the top spot:-) Hugs Jan xx
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Date: 4/30/2015 11:47:00 PM
Gosh, here i was thinking I had seen all your poems, and I now find this amazing personal write back from Sept. How did I miss it? you are such a fine writer, Armand. Truly happy that you got a first place win with this heart wrenching poem. The last lines OH MY!! congrats on the win.
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Date: 4/30/2015 9:55:00 PM
Not me, Linda! Had my fill of pills. But Maurice, back on subject, great voices and I feel the anguish. Congrats!
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Date: 4/30/2015 9:12:00 PM
I want some of them pills Maurice, Congrats.................... Luv ~Linda~
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Date: 4/30/2015 8:42:00 PM
LOL, MAURICE, did you really write this on Sept 11? That's my aunt's birthday. Anyways, this was ripping it into the new.. thank you for being you. SKAT
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Date: 9/12/2014 12:56:00 AM
Writing allows us to express the things that we could never say. I believe that poetry can be very therapeutic, because it has gotten me through some tough times before. It is like that best friend who is always there when we need them most.... Please keep writing, Maurice. You have a great talent! Good luck in SKAT's contest!
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Date: 9/11/2014 9:29:00 PM
Thank you for sharing such personal info with us. Maurice. You are a great poet above all things and I hope your writing and reading are also good medicine for you. I am amazed of all the hardships people have gone through here. On one side it is good because we all have pain in one form or another and can all support each other.
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Date: 9/11/2014 3:36:00 PM
Like I said, you can talk the talk.... Nope, I did not hide it here... why look Robin, it's Batman again... :) LINDA
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Maurice Yvonne
Date: 9/11/2014 6:20:00 PM
hey batman i can't find it.
Date: 9/11/2014 2:38:00 PM
Forgot what I was doing here...got caught up reading the comments....happy hugs Tim
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Maurice Yvonne
Date: 9/11/2014 6:20:00 PM
drop in anytime
Date: 9/11/2014 12:18:00 PM
deep emotional write Maurice my sis suffers from depression and the meds mess her up - at the moment I can't cope with words from her like 'I want to go to sleep and never wake up' -I've got enough on my plate and want to keep on living. hugs Jan xx best therapy is writing Maurice gets your emotions out in the open and others can relate:-) hugs Jan xx
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Maurice Yvonne
Date: 9/11/2014 2:45:00 PM
thanks Jan. you are a good friend.
Date: 9/11/2014 12:16:00 PM
excellent piece of writing
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Maurice Yvonne
Date: 9/11/2014 1:36:00 PM
thank you Liam.
Date: 9/11/2014 12:08:00 PM
I know exactly that. I was put on meds for anxiety, and for bi, but I like my emotions too much, I need them. I write and it creates a home for them, emotions are a tool, they don't need to be shamed or supressed. and I missed the sex drive, i hated feeling numb to the world. i think the key to not being crazy is to except being crazy and use it the bad times make the good times sweeter, why make all the flavors the same. But anyway, babe you are awesome and I certaintly do enjoy having you here
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Casarah Nance
Date: 9/11/2014 1:59:00 PM
You have us if you ever need to talk, Jan is right, we are the best medicine. Embrace your nature, embrace yourself, and you can embrace us, hehehe. one big happy hug. ;)
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Maurice Yvonne
Date: 9/11/2014 1:35:00 PM
Thank You for your amazing support. Your words are really helpful you are brave to be so frank and I love you for it.
Date: 9/11/2014 11:15:00 AM
If I could only read your mind I would really know what you mean here.....Most excellent my friend...hugs to both of you
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Jan Allison
Date: 9/11/2014 12:18:00 PM
And now you have soup friends for emotional support - best medicine in the world Tim:-) hugs Jan xx
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Tim Smith
Date: 9/11/2014 11:22:00 AM
Yes I know, I was given some while going through my divorce...I had to stop taking them...Both of us were sad
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Maurice Yvonne
Date: 9/11/2014 11:19:00 AM
HAHAHAHA! While taking care of my parents for seven years 24/7, i suffered a panic attack and then many. I am not typical bipolar mostly general anxiety disorder. I feel great but the pills do have a sedative quality.

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