Loud Silence

I strained to hear a sound that could not be heard What needed to be learned imperceptibly blurred It was so loud this lonely burden Of what I was aware I could not be certain Leaving me wondering “What’s beyond the open curtain?” I didn’t want to listen to what I couldn’t hear That rumblings in my inner ear It made me feel sad while growing my fear “What is my purpose?” “Why am I here?” Each moment that passed Felt like it would be my last The mingling of my future with my sad past I didn’t know why Or what made me try Could I find truth Within a cruel lie? No one else knew Or could even care How could they even be aware? So I understood it was my own despair It lived within me It wasn’t somewhere out there I could feel the fabric within me as it started to tear I wish I knew what was false and true As the thumping tearing pounding inside me grew Yet that still loud silence it could not be heard For it was always thought It was never word My past, present and future together blurred Then I placed bare feet upon grassy ground I felt connection beyond mere sight and sound I longed for freedom while being earthly bound A full circle moment flowing round and round Somehow my skin it fully understood My fingertips communed with wood The Earth and heavens spoke through me “You are now perfect and always will be Yes a part of all that’s been created by Me.”