I Saw God, but Now What

Line of inquiry: “Yes, I affirm, I have seen God But He appeared and then disappeared This knowing that transcends mind, left me awed But until what’s imbibed is assimilated, by fears I’m seared” Once I felt the power of God It seeped into me like lightning, Illumining the track it traversed It settled somewhere down, Within the vibrations of light and sound. In my heart a delectable music swelled. My life was deluged with song. His guiding light led me through devious paths. When was it that I lost connection with that power? It happened gradually without my knowing In course of time, it got veiled and eclipsed, By the darkness of worldly desires. I was caught in life’s swift current. Wishing to stay afloat, l drifted, Into the midst of peripheral comforts, Like one chasing the deceiving mirage of the desert My ego bloated like a balloon I walked on stilts that I forgot the feel of my feet I felt the stream of love narrowing into a trickle And then drying out completely. I was busy making money In my mad rush after power and pelf, I threw my values to the wind Soon storms began raging into my life. I was befriending gnawing anxieties and strangulating fears. My dreams shattered like glassware My world lost its rhythm and I lost my calm. Life seemed to go on, leaving me behind Never more I could endure the desolation That hovered over my me like a dark shroud Like a mother's despondency at the loss of her child, An emptiness enveloped my spirit and being. I knew it was not too late, To recover all that I lost. I decided to trace my steps backward, And travel in reverse gear. In all earnestness, I turned my downcast eyes heavenward Soon I started breathing with greater ease I began getting healed in love’s gentleness Binding me to God through an unshakable bond Like sunlight arching through the dark Once more He came into my life to light my interiors Now he resides within me, not at the periphery as earlier, But deep down as a living power, changeless and timeless!