You - Me

This feeling is like being trapped in a nightmare. I close my eyes and I lay here. Coming down, I try to escape you. Trying to hush up these thoughts that race through my brain. But I can't find the brakes, so fast, I can't stop. I feel so insane. Suffocating from your hold on me Hanging on to me, I hear you taunting me. I can't shake you. You're scaring me! You've made me so weak,I can't run. So under the blankets I hide. Theres no use. How can you find me every time? I can no longer deny that I'm weak for you . Such a pathetic thing that I'd almost crawl to you. I know that I hate you, Yet when I try to rid myself of you I find myself missing you. I hate to say that it's become more like I'm needing you. But I refuse to fiend for you! I'm on my knees, will I give into you ? You're a monster . You don't lurk in the closets. No need to creep under beds. Instead, I find you inside of me; controlling my head. You're a demon attached to me. Constantly draining me. Eating and feeding from me. & slowly, ...I know that you're killing me . Why can't you just leave me be? Stay away from me! Please I'm done with you numbing me.