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Why Not Me

Why Not Me? 1/25/13 At times I allow my thoughts to wonder to that one question that brings such sorrow and pain; why not me! I have gone through life not knowing why but have often wondered why not me too? I have cried more times than not and prayed for understanding. What could be so wrong with me? I have so much love to give and all I have ever wanted was to have someone, anyone to love me as much as I love them. I want to be the most important person in the world to someone and always come first. I want and need someone to love me. I have so much to give but need the same in return. If I can love unconditionally; can’t someone love me the same way! I can’t understand how or why I could go through life and never find love. I have prayed my entire life to find my one true love. I have never given up but still find myself asking why not me. My heart breaks while my mind is torn apart not understanding why I can’t be loved. I have loved so that I just wanted to melt together only to be rejected! Why not me; is the question that I dare to ponder leaving my heart ripped apart as my screams are heard only by me. I only ask for love! What is in store for me that I have never found anyone that loves me? At times when these thoughts surface tears follow and sadness fills every inch of my soul. To know I am unlovable is almost too much to bear. My prayers seem to go unheard, as they remain unanswered. I can’t believe no love for me is the answer! So my heart and mind filled with pain and sadness wonder why not me? Broken and alone as I continue on my journey through life, my heart guarded by the highest walls keeps love safe inside no longer trusting. Now knowing love will not find me and it’s not safe to ask that question to such a lonely and broken heart. I guard against the razor sharp why not me! Debra Knapp

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Johnny Rhinem

Date: 6/27/2013 4:33:00 PM

`Yes As A Somewhat Handsome Young Lad Once Upon A Time, One May Have Thought That I Too Would Perhaps Have Found Love, Sweet Beautiful Debbie ? Yet I Remember Within Those Days Finding Priceless Lives Whom Many In This Place We Live Would Somehow Consider Or Call Outcast ? But, There They Were Many Couples Countless Times, Holding Hands Laughing Kissing Sharing Their Heart's As Love ~ Never Myself Although Thus, I Can Relate Unto Your Beauty's Touching Endearing Verse ~ Love, John

Debbie Knapp
Date: 7/1/2013 5:01:00 PM

I hope you have all the love you could ever want my friend. I know you as a wonderful, kind, and one with a heart filled with love.

Poet Destroyer A

Date: 6/24/2013 9:11:00 AM

wow! Debbie, this one took a different tone.. I love the depth in your poem, and wonder... always~ LINDA

Debbie Knapp
Date: 7/1/2013 5:03:00 PM

I want to write from every point of view. I talk with lots of people and write as they feel. I write my life, others, and just make things up too.

Shiraz Iqbal

Date: 6/17/2013 11:26:00 PM

In the walk of life we neglect the small doses of love that we get from people around us.....Enjoy your life with those small doses n Wait for it my dear hope you get the one of your dreams Love Shiraz

Debbie Knapp
Date: 6/18/2013 5:46:00 PM

You are so right my friend. Love in any dose is still love! Thank you for the wonderful advice and the great insight.

William J. Jr. Atfield

Date: 6/13/2013 11:14:00 AM

Debra Knapp “ Why Not Me ” and others are – I do believe - but reflections / expressions of so many of us who have, have to walk these rocky roads, that the hands of fate, a karmic state, cosmic force, the hands of our fellow human beings lay at our feet and fill our psyche’s with . One of my long time – now passed on – good friends was Joyce Knapp, of Brantford Ontario. Any relation Debra, ? Bill . http://bja2-anoldsoul.blogspot.com

Debbie Knapp
Date: 6/17/2013 5:10:00 PM

My Friend I did not the one of whom you speak. I do pray this one found much love as I have and share a life to which I am not asking why not me. Thank you, Bill for reading my poem and I hope Karma is filling your life with love too my friend.

John Posey

Date: 6/4/2013 12:07:00 PM

There will come a day when the one who loves you most will make himself known and all your questions will pass beyond the scope of memory... Love ya ...... Jake

Debbie Knapp
Date: 6/4/2013 6:26:00 PM

Jake, you have a way with words and a heart filled with love. You are a special person. Thank you my friend.