Vacuum

I seem happy, but it is loss I sense My smile betrays a grief immense The day is bright, but what flows through my veins is fear Why is silence screaming into my ear I look around searching for a familiar sight To see you, touch you, to gain strength to fight I see you but you face the other way So I drop my shoulders and trudge away I am rudderless and lost in this sea so vast Of sadness, and ghosts of my past Haunt me and badger my every sense My life seems an existential pretense I am used to having you in every step of my life Your words would always prop me up But I guess my only friends will be silence Loneliness, darkness and your absence