Unsure and Immobile

Why, why can't I...why can't I just like a girl without the twisted means, the stupid schemes the boyish need to feel along with the redundant love notes, emotional discharge Why, why can't I...why can't I just like a girl without things getting out of hand without feeling the sting of rejection without crying dramatic tears Why, why can't I...why can't I just like a girl for who she is when no one else is around for who she is when she can be seen, for who she is around me Why, why can't I...why can't I just like a girl have her as a friend, a close friend take the time to learn about her make her laugh and smile, be her shoulder to cry on to be all she could possibly need without attachments, no problems Why...why...why can't I...why can't I just like a girl without all the dating issues the complications from mass problems of the mind Why, why can't I...why can't I just like a girl instead of holding my brain in my hands mimicking cradling an infant instead of dwelling in this current animosity ...why can't I just like a girl without an army of obstacles chaining me where I stand, unsure and immobile ...why can't I just like a girl without everything...slipping away without everything, everything...falling away ...why can't I just like a girl... ...why can't I...why can't I... ...Why...