Unspoken Words Unwept Tears

Unspoken Words Unwept Tears Thoughts locked away and tears that fall no more. The things tucked away that can no longer reach the surface are things that bring such pain one would think they are going to die. There’s a place that holds all the secrets so far out of reach the mind can no longer tell if they or even real. There was a time when things were spoken aloud and thoughts took on real meaning. I would whisper to you and beg you to listen to my heart and my needs. I wanted you to look through my eyes. My whispers went unheard so I cried and pleaded with you, won’t you hear me? I need you to do as you promised…This did not work so I bargained and threatened. My tears soaked my pillow night after night. I cried in the quiet with no one to hear! You said, “You loved me and I would always come first”. What happened? I love you and cannot understand. My heart has been torn to the core and my eyes blurred with searing pain. The disbelief of such agonizing grief has scarred not only my heart and eyes but my mind as well! I just can’t argue anymore or try to make you see things my way. I thought I was what you wanted, I was good enough for and you trusted me. I trusted you: trusted that you loved me and that was all I needed know… I can’t allow myself to think of these things that have been tucked away or allow myself to cry any longer. My time was spent this way day after day and night after night till I locked this part away. Now when I scream it is in silent only from within. It never makes it to the surface. The tears that used to fall only wet my heart and fill the cracks. They fall no more! Debbie Knapp