This Pain

figuring out what i already knew, living in solace with very little to do- allowing this pain to walk all over me, making my eyes too blind to see… this isn’t friction, it’s addiction, and i can’t break free embraced by an illness that has taken hold, too small to see i’m just too damn old- forgetting this pain can walk all over me- never seeing what will be, will be- this isn’t vanity, it’s insanity, and i can’t break free acceptance of what will come is the worst, letting go of what i think has come first- what will i find in my poor mind? continuing to let this pain walk all over me- this isn’t real, what i feel, and for some reason, i just can’t break free i’ve lost what i found in the beginning of time, now i’m bound by sound spinning in rhyme o, when will i break free? from this pain that has taken hold of me ________________________________ 1/19/2022 I am having a spinal fusion on February 3rd and am in a lot of physical pain. I am also a recovering addict and pain relief options have been very difficult for me. Please keep me in your prayers. Many thanks :) -luloo