This Big Mess

Lord I am in a real mess and this mess that I am in I could sure use a dear friend because this mess that I am in is because of wrong choices and falling into sin. For many a year I lived in fear and shed many a tear. You see I had these monsters on my back in the from of cigarettes, alcohol and crack. With no help around I went down, into a hole I fell witch was pure hell. Life for me was really cold because alcohol and crack had a very strong hold. I tried to fight my way out of that hell but to no avail. Every time I though I was about to win, I got pulled back in. I didn't know what else to do then I got a tip, hey man Rehab's for you. By feeling lost and deprived, not thinking I was going to survive so I gave Rehab. a try. Things began to look really neat, I thought being in Rehab. is going to be sweet, cause I will break these habits and that will be a real treat, but the alcohol and drugs were to strong plus I was in to deep. Then the rug was snatched from under my feet. I came down hard and that's a fact, started back to smoking crack, alcohol became my friend and I begin to sin again. So I tried Rehab. another day and another failure came my way. I picked my self up and tried Rehab. again, but crack and gin said we are your only friends. Lord this mess that I am in I could sure use a dear friend. Now Rehab. said just do as you are told and you wont fall back into that dreadful hole. While the alcohol and drugs where saying, we are going to make you slip because it will take God Almighty to break our grip. Still, I kept working the steps trying to make a turn around, but every time I though I was coming up, I got knocked back on the ground. Rehab. tried all they could but the hooks were in far to deep and for me there way was just no good. I took all I could stand, It just took a much higher power than man. So I prayed, Lord hear my plea, the next time I try I will succeed, but instead of a smile on my face there was an ugly frown because the drugs and alcohol had won again and knocked me back on the ground. I''d had enough the drugs and alcohol was just to tough, I felt so alone like The Lord had left me on my own. I lost all fight and lost all hope, I said forget it I'm going to die by alcohol and dope. Through all the stress and strife I started to think about taking my own life. I though, what the heck, I don't care I'm not accomplishing anything or going anywhere. I went to buy a drink but that wasn't so because a strong but good feeling had taken hold and was in total control. I was lost and confused, misunderstood and that's when The Lord showed me that He is Very Good. While Rehab. was saying, there is no way unless you do what we say because the drugs and alcohol will clip your wings unless you change people, places and things. But The Lord proved that's not true, for my children you are mine and I can come into any place at any time. I will bring you out and you will spread your wings for I am your Lord GOD and I can do all things. Now I can let out a shout, I thank you Lord for taking the hooks out. With you Lord I stood the time and passed the test and I'm no longer in that Big Mess. And I thank yo Lord for my life and hope for you took away the cigarettes, the alcohol and the dope. You took the urges away and I haven't had them any more for you pulled me through and you shut the door. And I thank you Lord once again for I finally found my Dear Friend... AMEN.