The Other One (Your Mistress)

before I die I will breath understand the whys I see this is not love you lie and I let you do it I'm between you and her hidden as a shadow reduce to a microbe a cockroach trying to pleasure you my mind, heart, body fighting in a civil war sometimes my mind wins but you start the fight again and my weakness is your best weapon I've forgotten myself what do I deserve? I see you and her but not me not even on a picture the weekend girl the other one the one you want but not enough and I'm dying my soul is consumed I don't have tears left my body has become my enemy and every Monday I hate myself I call for help I'm still here waiting, what? you...a change..to wake up I'm between your body and heart you and her but me? where is my heart I don't see my eyes reduce to nothing feeling a piece of... fire burning inside with my lips closed, my tongue stuck my thoughts forgotten my feelings lost.