The Monastery

The night was black , thunder boomed and lightening cracked The earth shook with mighty groans as I watched And I did moan as the animals headed for home I walked somberly thru the night , reflections of my soul showed bright My soul reflected the darkest light , the perfect reflection of the night Something shook, struggling to appear, violence stirred from deep within Showing the permanent scars from youthful kin I shook with rage while it did linger until it passed with unflinching lies out thru my fingers I sat and cried till all was revoked Then I listened to inner thoughts and finally spoke I cried unto the heavens amidst my fears and many pleas I tried and tried but they didn’t hear, nor cared that I cried The layers too deep, the skin too thick and unable to attain It was of no use , it was all in vain To enlighten the darkest moments I hid behind my veils while I got old Then fearing at last it was to no avail I was rewarded with a light , a bright white light , as bright as can prevail Forty years I did wander , a soul lost in harsh abandon Reflections did appear spotted with blight ,and dark as in a deep dreadful night Perversion , evasion , all the tiny tears cemented the cracks of personal use Till I could hold no more and asked the heavens to keep me safe , secure in earthly womb I cared no longer for the vague twilight Twice I rose and twice I fell Failed beyond measure and all the rest of the jails , till at last love prevailed Gone the struggles, gone the pain Yet sometimes memories still prevailed A hope, a star shining bright, a pure white burning light Seen from afar the beginning , the end ,my life, my home I will not rest till I attain the sweet victorious refrain in my poem