Spinal Cracks

I think I'm falling in love with you.... But I still have to crack you open, And it scares me. You're like a dusty old book in an ancient library long forgotten. I try to open you, But I can't force it. Your spine cracks and with too much force, It just might snap. I'm just a kid with her backpack on heading to study, Looking to learn, Hoping for the best, Still hurt but optimistic, Frightened but adventurous, Unbelievably worried, but wanting to leap into a future with you. I understand you, But whenever you shut me out it wrings my stomach into a knot. Whenever you distant, My mind will race and run away from me. My heart beats until my tears flow towards its gears causing it to short circuit. I care about you so much I'm always afraid you'll leave, You'll wander down a dark road and get lost, You'll never make it back to me. The anxious knot tightens. Do you love me like you say? How much? You're different, and I don't know what to do. I long for the day when you'll lay here next to me. Will I really be the way you picture? Could I really be that wonderful? What will happen if I don't meet expectations? I want an answer, But will I like it? Only one can answer, And he may not even know. He's perfection. He's a reflection of myself. He can lead me in the right direction, But only if he finds his own way....