Searching myself

Do not know who I will be yet The stone is never set Of so much I dream As out of reach as it sometimes does seem I am who I want Reaching for visions that sometimes haunt Never quite the person I see In the life that is meant for me Outside myself looking in Wondering where I have been Love is the ultimate sin Walking further away Each day Running from, or maybe towards tomorrow All the sorrow Life, I only borrow Sights I see I only wish to be free Spread my wings and fly ...... So high..,......... Seeking only to survive Long as I am alive One day at a time Writings that have never made me a dime Life is the rhyme How far I must go I shall never know Come so far Searching for my star Behind me lies yesterday Reminding me to go another way Inside myself, I find Peace of mind From the life I have left behind Grass is never greener on the other side Tears are hard to hide Love so far... out of my reach Listening to people preach Sitting here lost in thought Was this fight well fought What lessons were taught Did I pass my dreams on by In a teardrop that I once did cry How far must I go Before I know I am here Standing before you far beyond my own fear So many a year Has come and went Was life well spent Life passes on by Who is there to cry When you stand alone in life Strife