Not Good Enough

I wish I was good enough to love I wish I was good enough to be wanted I wish I was good enough to not be broken or hurt I wish I was good enough to not be rejected But I’m not good enough Not good enough to be loved and cared for, Not good enough to not be raped, Not good enough to not be taken, Not good enough to live a peace full life, Not good enough for a coffee, Not good enough to be talked to on weekends, Not good enough to not have miscarriages, Not good enough to live. Not good enough to not have cancer. Not good enough to be loved even if I’m not family, Not good enough to live the life I dream off. I’m just not good enough for this life. Thank you cancer for showing me that. For showing me how not good enough I am, To the ones I want to notice, Not to even get an apology. I will die and won’t have the apologies I have been waiting for. I’m just not good enough.