My Lil Big Brother

When he was a child, He threw my belongings out the window Gazed upon me not knowing, Where I would go Belt welts for my belongings, He did not know where about Dwelling in a cold city night, They looked for me in my fright When I became a teem mom, He embraced my change Knowing I've always been like a mother, Even when not holding the title of her name When he realized he beat me, He was not naive to see However his mind was not developed enough , To see it was breaking threads He adapted to my change gradually, Seeing it as the norm Eventually seeing the sister he once knew, Becoming someone he now mourned As he grew he pushed harder because he knew, My hopes and dreams for him were true Occasionally falling off track, He intensely fought back So that he to could give up, But he continues to strive Graduating first, Meeting the finish line He knew he made me proud, As an adult expressing I was heard cheering all along In receiving my approval, Formulating his grind When I gave up, In my energy he drowned Helping me to stay afloat, Encouraging me as his life boat I continue to tread water, Within tsunamis in my head Now using him as the outlet, In which I express my purge My deep darkest fears, Managing the currant so I can breathe Helping to improve my strokes, Through his knowledge of swimming When younger siblings step in, In pride we should not be led Through an Ego filled mind, Remember they've been watching you the entire time My Lil Big Brother