My Crazy

Mental health is my life Self made strife A dark shadow over my head The negativity my brain is fed Telling me to hide My brain sometimes locks me inside No one to confide Watching as the world goes by Can't help but cry Silently I shout I feel left out Like a rollercoaster ride through hell Waiting for the next spell I hide it well So many different a mood Very misunderstood Why am I Tears I cry Still I'm willing to try Life is pain My soul, this stain So alone Is this life I'm shown Walking on by Afraid to die No one would see Locked inside I hide From what I can't say Always been this way Blinded by right Lost in the night Why this fight Love, I tried In the end I cried Memories they haunt Taunt Flaunt Showing me the things I've lost Pain is what love cost My brain Maybe it is insane The pain real Why must I feel Words forever bouncing through my head The rollercoaster ride From somewhere inside emotions slamming me from the moment I awake Every breath I take This crazy ride I fight to hide This must be insane My broken brain Happy, sad At the same time glad I sit there in the night On goes this fight Isn't right One more day Lost in what to say The negativity my brain is sending Never ending Emotions always blending But the crazy always seems to win Why am I here Dealing with my fear Life ,love, all like the past Went by so fast Left a tear in my eye So softly I cry But still I try. I stand strong Life seems long Love goes untold Life starts to unfold As I grow so old It is so confusing I find it amusing Strength I pull out from somewhere inside Helps me hang on throughout lifes crazy ride