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I have a son, in whom I am well pleased, with more than his share of heart and mindbody intelligence, to comprehend vastness of Earth's evolving history and future demise, to comprehend full emptiness of universes within and without co-arising nondual lonely/solitude double-binary universes de/re-generative, Enough intelligence to become One-haunted, Zero-empty beyond our deep dualist dark insignificance as a species, and far less secular value even than this commodification of isolated EgoCentric Futures, His own autonomous Ego value so inconsequential he doubts his worthiness of food he eats, of water he drinks, of air he breathes in solitude, out lonesome, still in-between much less worthy of competitive employment, of any maturing sense of healthy vocation, social purpose, sacred meaning midst his human comedic/tragic environment at its best a cooperative musical re-creation network. This reciprocity he can more or less actually find on-line, but not so much within his own family, much less school. Well, maybe a few non-isolating exceptions to the individual student rule competing against all other egotestical students, everyone playing an absurd StraightWhiteMale Win/Lose LeftBrain dominant game, with loser death the inevitable ego-identified outcome for each and all; no exceptions for eco-therapeutic GayBrownSons. In the meantime, Should we continue to fiddle and twitter and shake dis-autonomized hands while Earth prepares to burn in the middle and flood on the shores? Why not orchestrate Win/Win gaming cooperatives, more democratically inspired fun, more opportunity to improve communication, co-deductive/inductive nonviolent dipolar analysis? To live empirical-compassionate method in an actively healthy curiously communicative economic and political mutual Win kind of bicameral Taoist way. But Taoism is off-course, in his expansive view, hiding in a Pandora labeled X-box "EXEGENESIS of RELIGION" which is about a spirituality cat half yin dead and unfortunately only, at best, half nightmarishly lonely yang half alive, as if solitude spirit is any other than eco-dynamic yang-One nature, as if lonely yin were in other than absent reverse nondual 0-sum engaging yang's revolving Earth-bilateral clock. Spirituality implies he walks through a divinely inspired comedy with few speaking parts and no solos allowed, which he feels could not be true unless win/win divine game inspiration is no more or less than human naturally regenerative DNA fractal programming function, developing cooperative eco-binary Fullerian form, informational ergodic prime nonzero-sum regenerative patterns and natural rhythms, synergetic invitations toward solitude gratitude lonely attitude, integral predestination of phylogenic bilateral bihemispheric structural flow revolving through Earth's interdependent orbits of health-timed wealthy space. To what meaningful end could we possibly become for one who is humanist comedy/tragedy musical cooperative-preferred, competition-averse? With polypathic/polyphonic inclined interests rooted in rich dense fertile healthy sharing this hour this game, this day's night plan, but without actively articulating cooperative invested hope for any long-term self support systems, thrival nutrients for his body; not just his solitude/lonely mind, breath, bicameral heart-beat... Surprising to me how my lovely son quickly learned to re-see win/win spirituality as natural nonduality, but has yet to recover his embryonic mind as body co-arising neuro-systemic transparency, much less divine as also humane musical comedic/tragic unity not aspiring toward monolithic uniformity Despairing eremetical non-choice despite polypathic resonant opportunities to feel so much yang wealthier ego-centering Left and yinternally healthier eco-systemic Right.