Mending a Grudging Mind

Over...and over...and over...and over Why do you keep doing this why must you insist to interfere why won't you disappear Why? ! WHY? ! ! ! ANSWER ME! ! ! ! Oh so now when I demand answers you're sound asleep put your head upon a glacier a head so heavy you've created a snowstorm over me I feel the bitter coldness you place upon me Fine! HERE! Eat these rocks for dinner, eat all of it, even the dirt underneath hopefully you can feast upon that instead of my sorrows, my misery YOU'RE NOT HELPING ME! ! ! You only bother to enter my world to give me pleasantries so sweet oh but for a day for an hour, a small moment before you'll move back the screen, a full screen arena like curtains in a play and show how much my world is burning, crumbling how my rage and regrets my sorrow and sickness encompasses me and you sit idly by saying nothing watching, waiting for the screams to stop for me to sit quietly and let someone else scream in my defense while you do nothing to console me Why won't you do something interfere when necessary since you know I've been asking no, pleading with urgency for better days this despair, this rage is eating me alive a ghost devouring on a human's soul I've been pleading for a better way to earn my way to a new life full of peace and happiness I don't have to cease being alive to fulfill What doesn't kill you makes you stronger Bah! what hasn't killed me has made me indifferent while my nightly dreams continue to concoct different formulas to remove me from this world to have me suffocate in agony as the world turns gray amidst the popping of my final breath of air in a form of a giant bubble How dare I shout my frustrations at you my growing frustrations lining the insides of my stomach as for years I've held my tongue ask the sibling you dared to take from me ask the sibling I'll never lay eyes upon again AHHHHHHHHHH! ! ! Why do you do these things to me Why is it me... don't smite me, just hear me out hear out my complaints of the world I once wish to revolutionize now I just see revolutions as a joke empty inside here me vent, maybe I'll start to mend this, my one grudge against you someone I don't even know...