Mama's Diary, Part Ii

Disappointed that most of the things she kept contained on a daily basis were far too banal to entertain memories of sad things over the years ho-hum anxieties, insipid fears rather mundane and not even interesting unlikely worries like being kidnapped by pirates or eaten by a polar bear- but worries like her favorite dress being ruined by the cleaners and not having anything decent to wear or getting a bad permanent in her hair Disgusted by the blandness of my Mama's secret life I flipped and skipped ahead to after she and Papa wed but it was no better just drab descriptions of her experience as a housewife and lists of petty irritations things he did that annoyed her but she hollered those out in screams and shouts so even those were no great surprise 'cause it didn't take much to 'get a rise' out of my Mama... Eventually I learned that people will answer those questions every day in the way they live their life in the things they say for there's a pattern to everything and ultimately we each reveal all we try to conceal whether in our work or in our play ...and my Mama spoke volumes in her diary in all the things she didn't say