Longing Crow

Red fish, blue fish, green fish, yellow fish a rainbow in the pond, lets swim upstream change the course of evolution, grow two feet and wings proceed to fly like Pegasus to the end of the rainbow find this pot of gold, a tale we only told so we can finally begin the show: Welcome to the show, a feeling so low the day ticking by so slow and I, with idle time for a minute or two succeed at nothing but filling up the timeline with a meaningless copycat frame of mind Salute the itinerary for keeping me in line inside the crooked-straight lines out of left field and into mines let loose the explosion of memorable feeling I'm lost in the darkness, what could this bring sincerely, missing a key part of me in this kaleidoscope maze universe of the world I circumvent Shush now, hush now, be mute now Nothing makes sense, to how I feel this very instant nothing makes sense A simple chord to pluck, a simple note to hit but the only simple things are these subtle lullabies I lie to throw out I don't need sleep, I'm awake What do I need to listen to, her voice is faint and I reach, I reach, I reach but all that reaching in the wishing well for a way to somehow grab that lost coin somehow give it a push for all the lost wishes never heard as I uttered one yesterday Me, as a whole, am a patient soul though different personas take over throughout the day out the door in break neck speed goes my patience as I wallow in self destructive poison I can't comprehend Where is this random assortment of story-telling leading leading you on, leading you off I tried to decorate this distraction manikin off as a song a pure excuse, poor excuse of an ensemble to resemble a person to get out one thing only: I miss her...I miss her terribly; her company, her laughter I have only the sound of her voice to play back for as long as I need but a voice can't be all I need I'm trying to push the want from my mind dress up my longing in a blue sun dress for an amazing temptress so I can turn to stone, live life like a statue alone keep moving forward instead of stopping for snacks and look-backs at good times once had but in my mind, all I crave is the image of her face I have memories, must I part with them auction them off on Ebay This is a mental disaster in open fray all I hear are waterfalls when I want her love to call the flower she planted in me, a timebomb I have no earthly idea if I alone should water it let it grow for her miraculous return or let it wither, making room for something that will stick around just a little while longer Rain, rain, what are your thoughts here you fall silent, mimicking tears only clouds can shed but I hide in this shed because I'm afraid of your answer I miss her, I guess that's enough I miss her and her company, guess that I should It's raining in Baltimore, it's raining in Baltimore baby and somehow it sapped all the life out of me