Living With Regrets

3am on the clock And still I can't get to sleep As I laid there crying I realized we were only 2 days away And we wldve hit 6 months In so little time We done so much And been thru even more We've had our good days And we've had our bad I've made mistakes Both big and small Not once or twice But several times And now even the good times And the love we shared Cant mend the bridges I've burnt As I sit here alone Getting down to my last cigarette Listening to another sad song Wondering if it's possible For a person to run out of tears You're somewhere far away And sound asleep They say when a person can't sleep Its b/c they're awake in someone else's dreams I wish that were true You've always been so patient You've always been so kind But even someone as forgiving as u Can only take so much And for u this was the last time But for me it opened my eyes I wish I could say 'better late than never' But this time that don't apply And I don't get another try No matter how much I beg and plead Or say 'this is the last time' I know in my heart its true And if it means spending the rest of my life with u I know what I could do with one last try But I guess we'll never know Cuz there's no changing your mind I'm sorry just won't cut it No not this time And u don't believe the 'I'll never do it again' So I guess I was just a little too late And now I'm sitting here reminiscing Wishing I would've woke up sooner But I didn't And I can't change that now So all I can really say Is please know That when I told u I loved u I meant it with all my heart And though it may be over for u It's not even close for me I still wake up and reach out To bed as empty as the heart inside my chest I try to hide the tears I try to hide the way my heart hurts And I know I may have said sum hateful things But that's no way to be Considering how good u were to me I'm trying to take it easy But the memories tear me wide open And there's no one for me to blame but myself So from here on out I want u to know That I wish u the best A part of me will forever love u And if u ever change your mind I'll never be very far You are absolutely amazing And u deserve nothing but the best I'm just sorry that wasn't me and u Well maybe for u it wasn't But if I had the chance I would certainly do it all over again I just wouldn't make the same mistake twice And lose 1 of the 2 best things to ever happen to me I love u