Laying In My Bed

Im laying in my bed Staring at the ceiling Looking at the lines From the blinds Derived from outside Lights through my window Into my room And though i cant sleep I remain in wait While a state of awake Permeates my minds eye And the darkness Envelops me whole But the sounds of The night remain My clock ticks My clock tocks The seconds turn The minutes burn The fan shakes The blades spin My heart beats My mind races My eyes swell Im growing.... Im living.... Im thinking.... Im dying inside. I am awake. Yet i am alive.