I Don'T Know How To Love

She wants good morning texts, but at that time I'm ready to say good night She needs affection and cuddles, but I get scared and refuse to let people close to me I refuse to apologise for being the way I am, I'm just not ready for this emotionally I know I love you, I just don't know how to love you right This picture isn't pretty, I'm sorry for the state of it a history of heartbreak and failed relationships Any time love came my way I didn't know what to make of it I found the exit room as soon as I could, thinking I didn't have a place in it I let go of people I didn't want to leave I dream of giving what you need But right now I'm not ready or capable I always thought I was gods gift, until my ex showed me I was easily replaceable I've paid for my mistakes now I don't have any worth in me I've been playing the field so of course I have dirt on me I've got some growing up to do, I need to stop going to clubs Partying and drinking every weekend isn't going to help me in love I'm stronger than I show, but right now I'm not ready for love mentally But we'll end up together in the end if we're meant to be I know you'll hate me and I accept that you'll judge But I'd rather be honest about this and tell you I love you, I just don't know how to love