I Am Nothing

I try so hard not to think about her I struggle Yet when I am alone And the voices simmer Silence reigns King And she consumes my thoughts At first she is like a sweet tide Warm to the touch as it cradles the beach Then I feel it… My blood thickens, my heart screams My soul yields She turns against me A bitter wave, rough and cold And my heart the ocean floor Helpless to her desires I struggle For when I am alone And the voices simmer I am nothing Beaten and broken I am nothing I am nothing I scream it now! I am nothing But wait… Do you hear it? That voice…that whisper That calm after the storm That cold wind in the summer heat It is the sun as it sets, its lips on the curves of the ocean My body tremors Can it be true? My eyes open And I hear that whisper again It is on the other side of the door I clutch the door knob My hand shakes Then it dawns on me For at that moment When the clocks hand stops And a second lasts for eternity I am nothing And yet I am everything…