How Strange

I have potential, but I don't care. I am intelligent, but unaware. I am tensed but not serious. Still, I am hoping to be genius. I am energetic, but quite lazy. I do nothing, but still, very busy. Want things to happen in real. But satisfied with thoughts, they are virtual. What do I lack? I am confused. And scared, I might not lose. I have everything to get prepared. Still waiting for something, but not aware. Either, I need some motivation. Or, a lot of criticism. I need something to push me up. But once pushed, I'll infinitely rise up.