Help Me

I need your help today before I fall apart I seem to have lost a part of me Can u help me find it and make a new start Who do I call onto when nobody is there Who can I confide in It seems that nobody would care When will it get better does this pain ever go away I fall asleep hoping tomorrow will be better But it’s the same everyday There are no words to describe these feelings I don’t understand at all Mixed emotions which vary An overwhelming emptiness inside of me causing me to fall I’ve built up walls without any means to break free I’ve closed all the windows tightly And now I am trapped inside of me The walls were slowly built throughout the years and discreetly set in stone Invisible cement and bars which can not be broken I built it and yet I had never known Slowly inside I disintegrated dissolving into an empty shell that I can not bare Everything I once cherished became obsolete As I began to not care This painful numbness knocks me to my knees I do not know where to begin I am asking for your help please Somehow I have lost myself and do not know where to look How do I find the strength that I need Is it possible to get my happiness back that my sadness took How do I repair these feelings that I can’t describe or understand It’s as if I’m living with multiple people inside of me But none of them comfort me or hold my hand They battle each other in a war that can not be won They all are so different Yet I can not relate to even one A stranger to myself and invisible to those I see They ignore the warning signs And pretend not to notice the tears which are drowning me I try to inhale but am suddenly unable to catch my breath I gasp for some air As I fall to my knees pleading for my own death A broken puzzle that I struggle to complete Filled with random pieces that I can not match I want to walk away but I can not feel my feet I want to run away and escape it all but I do not know where to begin I am stalked by demons And they block the entrance for the angels to get in I find myself staggering unable to walk a straight line The path is uncertain Can u help me find the one that is mine