Grieving

a thousand times I call your name throughout the day like I always would you'd come frolicking around the corner always making your way to me a thousand times I swear I feel you brush up against my legs like you always would a thousand times more I forget your gone because you should be here not there but I know it's an oasis one where your lungs are restored, your breaths aren't shallow and you're eating all of the tuna in the world a thousand times I swear I wake up you next to me on the other pillow I can't help but sleep against the wall afraid I'll roll over on you and then I wake up, pillow bare no indent and the reality takes toll a thousand times I've prayed for your soul but in the end, I'm alone