Goodbye To Innocence

Another night... the familiar sound of footsteps... coming down the hall. Fear overtook me... as tears ran down my face. I prayed that he would continue on by... but it was not to be. As so many other nights... my heart pounded so hard... I felt like human prey... trapped with no escape... the hungry beast closing in. Next I heard my bedroom door creak,,, as it slowly opened. I then felt his hot breath... with an odor of stale alcohol and tobacco mixed in. I tried to pretend I was asleep... but all my attempts to stop this attack were futile. I once thought that I would grow up... find my prince charming... get married...have children... then live happily ever after. Now those dreams have been shattered. I no longer felt like my daddy's princess. How could he do those horrible things to me? Try as I might...the years have gone by... still my past seeps into every fiber of my being. Like a poison invading every avenue of my life... I can't forget... I can't let go... What am I to do? How do I find peace... How do I find Joy... Above all...how can I feel love? P.R. Deremer