Gender Dysphoria

Faulty biology adds a perfect suffering Tears in my throat leave me weakly stuttering Fear, pain, and angst leaves my body cold and shuddering Dark thoughts make me unconscious, slumbering I ask about your day and leave your soul merely ignored A lack of words, useless screams onto the lord Of which I lack belief, although desperation cold Closes shut my eyelids and embraces my own soul No one seems to notice all the pain which I withhold Abort physical pain and the infinite dysphoria Add the opposite of pleasure and orgasmic euphoria The result is numbness in an infinite dystopia I see 2 men in the mirror like I'd suffer from dyplopia I feel sickness for myself as a man with autophobia I vomit blood, I've cracked my skull because of nausea My lack of genitalia leaves me with phantom limbs I can't really describe it more than limbs that don't exist Will I ever be okay, or will this pain persist?