Forgiveness

It’s been three years since I left you In a corner bar You screamed for me to come back but I refused “Never” I said, “NEVER”! And here I stand again lost in your pain and anguish It seemed so simple so easy. Just one more time for old times sake. You couldn’t hurt me. I knew you and your tricks. But you are old and wise and I am a fool. And at your feet you pulled a razor blade from your boot and a thousand doves fell to the ground. The heavens broke and it rained broken umbrellas. And the tears ran down a tattooed tear Crying for forgiveness I cornered you. You had a bottle in your hand and you laughed because it was not empty and you knew I would have to drink until it was…but I stopped. And you vanished again. I have turned the corner again. For everything in this world is not cyclical. Sometimes the world is linear and if you have the courage you can walk away. I will not look back this time. For you have turned to stone and I am the one with the strength. I forgive myself. I forgive my stupidity. But mostly I forgive those who I have hurt and hold animosity against me. To them I must make amends. This is the hardest part of being me. Holding it all inside.