First World War

I envy the dust, the way it moves all free and careless, released from it’s sleeping state the thunderous pounds of late shelling, again endless. Muffled shouting, through this trench confounding, Mustard attack, gas mask aside, fingers in fumbling fight bitter cold night in a field. No fireside, food to bite cigarettes to smoke and mates to joke. last one gone two days ago up one minute then vanished in a puff of smoke. this place is beyond reality, it’s beyond insanity fighting for earth no mother walked nor father built. If they want to fight then bring it to my hills, not this flat wasteland of mud, blood, bones and chills. We were thrown into this bloody war, and we wont have our say, like we've never had before. Taken to the slaughter history will say, throwing ourselves forward like tidal-waves. Waves on waves of sacrificial lunacy again and again. we've taken little ground and this other trench looks bad, worse than ours doesn't looked heavily manned looks like we lost more man. What do we gain now? apart from more time in thought. those withered layers of rotting feverish flesh, one part is fresh the other pure dread. captain is shouting, up on my legs what’s going on...conscious or dead?