Dilemma of An Overthinker

days go by and i am the same things around me change yet my mind thinks the insane good things happen but i stale on worse ones opportunities missed and i live on regrets my head spins on a thousand stories assumptions-lies-words-actions interpreted in ample different ways dwell on thoughts that dont matter ignoring things that actually matter if it's not perfect it's nothing grinding myself everyday fear clouds my mind-what if worst case scenarios I entitle myself to criticizing everything that makes me- me highlighting my insecurities not letting me be you'll never be enough you don't deserve love walls built around me so i don't wound you chose to break the ice-i choose you oh how i wish i showed my true self how i wish i would show what i really feel do what i want to do so at the end of the day I wouldn't come back to a miserable me