Difficult Life

They say that life is simply what you make of it in which I believe is true, My life is full of pain and I don't know what to do... This pain is such a burden and continues to make me cry, Everyday that passes I could only hope to die... You see, all my life I was called upon for every bodies needs, Whether it was to fix their roof or fight until someone bleeds... I grew up with these as my only expectations, unaware of what will develop I ended up under criminal conditions... Those that helped destroy me when in times of trouble I would call, Now have turned away as I began that terrible fall... You all wonder why my heart has hardened into a solid stone, Cause in my times of trouble you left me all alone... All I would ask from you was a simple little hug, but you all turned your back on me as if I was a torn up rug... Maybe it's just me a penny i'm not worth, Cause even from my true love I get tossed back and forth... Will I always be alone unable to truly smile? For the pain is to intense I can hang on for only a while...