Deciding When

Never thought that I would feel this way I just need to make a getaway It just seems more futile every day Don't think I'll be back again Sometimes I want to scream out loud Feel all alone within a crowd Say a prayer with my head bowed To free me from this den Looking back on all my wasted years Spent the sunshine and saved the tears There's a time that you must face your fears The trouble is deciding when Every day I seem more lost Guess I underestimated all the cost Never worried how the dice were tossed Always rolled with the flow Built my castle on shifting sand I'm a stranger in my own land Watch it all slip from my hand How it will end I just don't know I look to heaven and I wonder why Should have made it but I didn't try Memories fade away as time goes by Time has never moved too slow