Dear Secret Admirer

I get weak everytime we talk, my walls come crushing down without a thought , My heart flatters at your voice, Though we've never met I don't feel any paranoid, I put some distance because Iam scared, What if I fall head first and break my neck, What if I spend another few years trying to convince you Iam worth loving, that Iam worth it, So many what ifs rushing through my head, Iam naive in my actions and you make me lose my vocal cord, I refuse to tell a tale incase I jinx this, See, I don't mind having you as my own, I don't mind loving you without a thought, I mean, Iam already vulnerable, See, I have come across many men but the type you are, I have never, the type you are is quite rare.