Dear Chantal

Dear Chantal, we’re not talking anymore, but I’ll write this anyway You came into my life when I was in a bad place I pushed you away and every day the regret I fight it everyday That was 3 years ago but I’m still in a sad state I’ve dated since then but you’ve always been the girl I can’t forget We were so close, and I pushed you away, which is something I’ll always regret I explained to you recently about the depression I had and you didn’t want to hear it Now you’ve cut me off, when I realized I wanted to repair it I understand it though, I left it too late Depression had a control of me though; I could only see a mess in my way I couldn’t see any good or positive things, I didn’t trust a soul But I’m finally free from depression I cut the hold I get why you’re scared, but I want to help you fight your fears When you cry I’ll wipe your tears I’ll hold you tight And keep you warm when you’re cold at night But none of that matters now, because we’re no longer in contact Maybe one day you’ll understand what I said and think you want that 3 years too late, but I genuinely never meant to hurt you I know if anything ever happens with us now, you have to make the first move We didn’t even date, you called me your man and I cut you off Cause I couldn’t hold down a relationship with my depression I took the loss But this whole thing I’m taking it as a lesson But I’ve got stronger feelings for you, than girls I dated for years This is my soul laid bare, I’m naked right here When we spoke I always got butterflies in my stomach Here I am drinking and writing poems about you, to try and find some comfort I just wish we could choose when we get to meet a person Sometimes the right person comes in your life at the wrong time You push them away even though it leaves yourself hurting Living with that regret forever, and that’s a long time Maybe one day we’ll get close again, I’ll never close the door on you But I won’t beg or hold on desperately You can find another man, but they won’t love you as much or think more of you I put all my love and heart in this poem, I’m not sure if I have anymore left in me