Darkness Within

Gazing out the window at the cloudy sky I feel warm tears gather in the corner of my eye My lips tremble and my hands shake How much more of this can I take? It seems like only yesterday that you were here Now I live in darkness and fear You were the light in my life Now I feel dead and full of strife The sky gets darker along with the pain in my heart When did all of this darkness start? It started when you went away Long ago on that fateful day Now I just want to lay me down to sleep Why must the pain in my heart I always keep Let me sleep in dreamless rest Today has put my body and soul to the test Just one night of dreamless sleep In my heart dark secrets I keep I close my eyes and hope not to dream Please don’t let me awaken to that blood-curdling scream I gaze out my window, as the sky grows darker yet I blink my eyes for they are wet Let me go and walk in the rain Let the rain hide my pain I want to know when I will feel life’s love again I just hate not knowing where or when My lips tremble and my hands shake It’s much better to just stay awake! In the darkness I know only fear Now that you are no longer here I want to close my eyes and sleep This pain in my heart runs so deep It’s you I wished were here Not all this heartache and fear I must move on into the light This is the only way to make my life right I long for undreamed sleep I hang my head and weep The darkness will soon begin I know I have lost and cannot win Be this heaven or be this hell I know this pain so very well I look to see if there is a light All I see is dead cold night I fear this will be the end of me My heart and soul will never be free I know my fate only too well I know I’m going to end up in Hell!