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Child of the King

I wondered how that I could be a child of the King. A long lost soul, I had no goal, but to maybe act and sing. I believed in Jesus, a man of love, But scared to death of God above. Why would Jesus die for me, and why would His Father let Him? It broke my heart, tore me apart, I walked toward shadows dim. I believed Jesus as a man who once had roamed the earth, A lover, not a hater, yet I questioned Virgin's birth. I memorized William Shakespeare, I Juliet became, I barely glimpsed the big black book, translated by King James. I slipped into a lot of pews, barely hearing the Good News, Until I pushed it all away, one cold and lonely winter day. In anger I told a block of wood the sorrows of my heart, And complimented it's patient stance, and let it play it's part. Empty! Oh so Empty! Angered. Sorrowed..... pained. I walked away completely, in uttermost disdain. I was at a crucial moment as I cried and cursed my lot, Believing my life was in vain and all of it just rot. Why THEN did You come forth to me, in my shear pain and misery? I was readying to throw Your book, whose words I could not see! Why would those words upon that page not form a bit of sense? Those ancient English word forms that I'd abandoned hence. When quick the thought arose in me, William Shakespeare's...I could see, In fact they were so clearly wrought, I memorized and ner forgot. I took Your book upon my lap, with that provoking thunderclap. I asked if You were really God, and Jesus Christ Your Son, With that I sensed You near to me, my pondering had begun. I saw the opaque scales fall that were once upon my eyes, I read sentences, and chapters, no longer to despise. Skipping to the end, as I was wont to do, I read the Revelation, revealing to me, You... In terror did I read those words of that...the end of all, I skipped the book of Genesis, I'd heard about the fall. Suddenly very tiny seemed the horrors of my day. I lifted up my shaking Heart, I know You heard me pray. Though terror struck I did not fall back into my old rages, "How do I Lord, escape these things I've read upon these pages?" For this was more than literary fancy writ of art, No longer was I acting, I'd never played this part. "30 And thou shalt love the Lord thy God, with all of thy heart..." "But God! I do not know You, and God I dare not lie, When within my very heart You see!" (I had this alibi) "Do I love You as much as my parents or sis? or even Spot my pet? I don't love You, I don't know You, I cannot love You yet." I knew somehow I had right then an audience of Him, Within my mind I felt Him near, when all my life was dim. "Help me to know You, so I may, escape the horrors of judgement day" Somehow I knew He heard me, He heard each thought I prayed. I could not present myself to Him a Child of the King, I'd felt the crushing doubts of life and it's cruel and vicious sting. But what He then presented was all so new to me, It was easier than imagined, simple as ABC. Admit I was a sinner? Oh yes, with surety. Believe Jesus is the Savior? I did, He helped me see. Confess He was my Savior: Yes, He is the Lord. As easy as the ABC"s, I read, believed His Word. I wondered once how I could be a child of the King. A long lost soul, I had no goal, but to maybe act and sing. Then I believed in Jesus, Son of God come to the earth, He is God within the flesh of man, and that through The Virgin's birth. He there upon a cross of pain, nails in His feet and hands, Jesus died, was buried, on the third day rose again, He loves, He cares He understands. I know...from whence I've been. I was a long lost soul, who had no goal, but to maybe act and sing. Was saved by grace through Jesus Christ, who is my God and King. His pleasure was to save me, a lost and dying soul, Now eyes on Him, my Savior, I finally have a goal. Note from author: When I asked "How can I escape these things?" I opened the Bible to this verse. The Bible is a big book, and I know it was no coincidence that I found this verse immediately: Mark 12:30-31 30 And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind, and with all thy strength: this is the first commandment. 31 And the second is like, namely this, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. There is none other commandment greater than these." KJV I couldn't love God, because I didn't know Him. I asked Him to help me to know Him, and He did, I found a wonderful church and a lot of new friends who helped me to get know God so much better. It took nothing on my part, to ask Him to forgive me of my sins, to be my Lord, my savior. Once I knew what He had done for me, I truly did love the Lord and wanted to follow Him! As I read the Bible, His words directed me on how to live my life and to follow Him. I could not change myself, I'm still on that road, He helps me in my walk in life in a personal relationship with Him. I know the miracle of God's intervention saved me from a terrible fate. I know and fear where I would be now if not for His incredible love reaching out to me in that desperate time. My new beginning in a walk with the Lord began with trusting Him, and getting to know Him through His word, the Bible. I love the verse "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding;6 In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths." ~Proverbs 3:5-6 I know this is true. As well as "Neither is there salvation in any other: for there is none other name under heaven given among men, whereby we must be saved.” ~Acts 4:12 KJV I learned that through my experience. I pray that others will find the joy and hope that I found in Him as well :)

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Date: 2/24/2022 6:04:00 AM
WoW! BJ, First of all, I want to mention that I am because of the comment that you wrote to Jeff on his recent poems. What a moving and powerful testimony. You had no real purpose or direction and wanted nothing to with God(so you thought). I believe there is a void in our hearts that only he could fill. I'm happy you cried out to him that day. Amen. Thanks for sharing your testimony. I'm going to look up that pastor you mentioned. Have a nice day-Alexis
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Bj Legros Kelley
Date: 2/24/2022 1:47:00 PM
Thank you for coming over to read my testimony Alexis <3 I was sooo lost. I'd asked Jesus to be my Savior as a little six year old, thinking it was a fluke, but He didn't see it that way obviously! I fell out of faith, confused by who God was, and eventually, didn't believe. He promises His kids "I will never leave you nor forsake you" He hadn't, I rejected Him, and I think it was my last call that day, He was there for me, in my disbelief. He is so good.
Date: 2/24/2022 3:30:00 AM
We are all so sure, so confident, we know how things are... until we don't! God has to crash our gates before anything makes sense. Life is good, life is sweet! To know and be known by Him... take care, your brother in Christ -jeff
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Date: 2/24/2022 1:40:00 PM
Jeff, yes! I was at my lowest ebb, if it was not for God, I wouldn't have survived that time, it was no less than a miracle. I couldn't understand, why would He care, about me. I did go with my sister to church as a little child, and I'd asked Jesus into my heart at about six years old, but I'd thought it was just another little performance, we did plays. She was my little director, and when she told me what to do, lol, I did it. There wasn't even an alter call, the preacher was just preaching, and she sent me up to the front...childhood antics and boredom maybe? But I remembered I did feel unexpected joy fill my heart at that time. He promises He'll never leave nor forsake His kids, I found He hadn't, even when I had forsaken Him in my confusion and disbelief.
Date: 1/9/2022 4:03:00 PM
I am so glad you came upon that church so long ago to help you grow to love jesus. You are a lot like me. I am still in the stage of just finally believing again but never into the stage of knowing HOW to feel that love without really knowing Him. I guess i will struggle with it all my life. But i have now accepted that Jesus is indeed Christ the Lord. LOVE this poem. A fave.
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Date: 1/9/2022 6:57:00 PM
We'll never find all the answers here on earth to all our questions, but I know that God knows we are just frail people, whom He loves so much. I don't have all the answers, all I really need is the one answer that really matters, and that is what you stated perfectly Andrea, ' i have now accepted that Jesus is indeed Christ the Lord' me too! <3 Amen! I love you sister :) <3
Date: 12/28/2020 11:34:00 PM
Thanks for this. Likewise, cheering you with blest Christmas spirit, and Holiday season, while sharing "... the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord" (Romans 6:23 of the King James Bible). God bless you.
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Bj Legros Kelley
Date: 12/29/2020 11:47:00 AM
Thank you Beata, may our Lord bless you and keep you and make His face to shine upon you through these Holidays and into the new year ahead precious sister! <3
Date: 12/8/2020 8:29:00 PM
This is an excellent post and narration, my friend of God's grace, BJ. I love the flow of the words and the impact of the message. The descriptive excellence is lovely. The theme great, and tenor move the piece along with much grace. Great job! https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/53812816-sincerely-speaking-spiritually.
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Bj Legros Kelley
Date: 12/29/2020 11:50:00 AM
Thank you so much my brother Joseph, y ou have encouraged me and blessed me with your words. May our Lord bless you and keep you through these Holidays and into the new year of 2021 <3
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Date: 12/8/2020 8:32:00 PM
Date: 12/8/2020 6:20:00 PM
BJ: I've just read 4-5 of your pieces. Enjoyed each one. This one is a lovely testimony of God's working in a man's heart. Well done. Keep them coming. Thank you for sharing with all of us on the soup. I trust it will reach someone that may have questions. Stay healthy. oldbuck
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Bj Legros Kelley
Date: 12/29/2020 11:55:00 AM
Thank you Old buck, your words encourage me. Our Lord is ever weaving our life stories, and I am still in awe of His amazing grace through salvation to me. Seriously, amazed. God bless you! May He bless you and lead you, keeping you and yours safe through these times <3
Date: 12/8/2020 5:52:00 PM
Dear B.J., you put your heart and soul into writing this lovely witness for the Lord! Indeed it is part of your story now. Yes, indeed we must cross over to belief then our Lord opens up what we could not see before! God bless you! Congratulations on becoming a new lifetime member!
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Bj Legros Kelley
Date: 12/29/2020 11:59:00 AM
Thank you Kim <3 It can only be Him that could open the eyes of the blind, there was no way I could have opened them to His word. I truly am amazed that He saved me in that utter darkness I was in. It is no less a miracle than raising the dead. I once was blind, but now I see <3 He is an amazing God!
Date: 11/2/2020 4:09:00 PM
I love this... It's a beautiful testimony dear friend!! I'm definitely faving it :) God bless you always :)
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Bj Legros Kelley
Date: 12/29/2020 12:15:00 PM
Thank you Regina Mcintosh, you have encouraged me with your kind words and poetry so often sweet friend! God bless you, and may He bless and keep you through the new year ahead! <3
Date: 10/27/2020 6:32:00 AM
I am not a man of religion, but you wrote a lovely poem devoted to your faith..
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Bj Legros Kelley
Date: 12/29/2020 12:24:00 PM
Thank you, I'm so glad you enjoyed the poem. I found this faith unexpectedly, I didn't have any at all, nor any belief that there was a God at that time in my life. It is an amazing gift that I am forever grateful for, and is astonishing that I ever received it.