Ashes To Ashes

Since she died, I have to build a makeshift funeral pyre to burn up all the secrets told her letters lit afire I read them through before I do the funny, sweet and shocking things she shared when we were kids vicious flames now mocking Their heat distorts my vision with a wavering in the air as I quell my indecision and try hard not to care Though it hurts, I cannot hold on to what would become twisted misunderstanding things she told of what her life consisted So many clever bits and pieces of lovely sisterhood slow the savory memory releases things unspoken yet understood Now tearing into tiny fragments salvaging what I can I burn and die a little as I throw them in the can For on this makeshift funeral pyre I offer my sacrifice and 'though I know- it's loyal and true I feel I'm losing her twice Like vicious beast, the blazing flames are licking, burning with poison tongue eating memories accumulated when my heart was free and young A smoldering within my soul now singed, and seared, and scorched feeling somehow less than whole my heart a wasteland, barren torched