As of Right Now

As of right now I am closer to the moon than happiness. My sunshine on a cloudy seized to exist. So many shots at making things right but I always miss. I wish you were my Mrs. instead I am stuck missing....you. As of right now I am marching in my parade through the freezing rain. I can be hit by a car, lit on fire, struck by train. Trampled by elephants, tarred and feathered, but losing you is truly pain. As of right now there is no reason to breathe. You are my anti drug, my Xanax and weed. I know it is my fault, I never called, continuously broke your heart, cut you open and poured salt. As of right now I wish I knew how to express my love. Tell you the truth and just be honest and be man enough. My mistakes are mine alone, and I deserve to be alone.