Accepting An End

Just when I thought I had it all sorted out You came around and now I'm full of doubt I didn’t think to see you again Would have the same affect it had back then But once again I was wrong How could I have known after all it's been so long Never knew these feelings I held inside It almost felt like the first time I tried to convince myself I no longer cared But the love you and I once shared Was stronger than anything I'd ever felt before And I guess my heart is still a little sore So seeing you with someone new Though I thought it was something I could do Turned out to be a little harder than I thought it would be Then again once upon a time you meant everything to me You would think I wouldn’t be so surprised But I guess after trying to feed myself all those lies I was beginning to believe they just might be true But standing face to face with you Wasn't what I pictured in my mind It's got me in a bit of a bind Wishing I could just erase you from my past And all the memories that didn't last Maybe then I could just let it all go After all you're no longer someone I know Even after everything we went thru The man I now see in you That man is nothing more than a stranger to me And I wish I could pretend and let it all be But something somewhere deep inside A part of me won't buy into those lies A part of me remembers the man you used to be The man who was once in love with me That man has long since disappeared And seeing you now is just a little weird It may not seem like a big deal to you And though I know you don't think this way too There are some things I may never understand Perhaps I'm living in my own little dreamland But I just can't pretend you never meant anything to me Even if we were never meant to be You and I have history Anyone can see, it's no mystery I know that may not mean much of anything to you And I'm okay with that too I just haven't found my own way But maybe one day I'll be able to do what you do And pretend I was never in love with you!