A Spiritual Break Down

It creeped upon me slow and increased day by day Something was draining all my spiritual food I could not pray without being interupted the words kept slipping away I could not sing praises making melody in my heart I was not focused on him My hope was built on nothing My Peace had been disturbed My whole body begin to shake and become weak Everything good I was once taught was being drained straight out of my head No zeal to serve him My Joy had been stolen My mind was infested with worldly things My feet walked another way My memories of the thorns on his HEAD were completly dead Thinkings of his hands and feet being pierced bothered me no more My fear of him was invisible My concern for my SOUL vanished as if it were never there How could I allow this terrible thing to happen to me in such a short time Why did I not GUARD my SOUL? I had to have been out of my MIND! STAY FOCUSED