Fatigue
Insecurity
Brain fog
Restless legs
Odour sensitivity
Mouth ulcers
Years of pain
Agoraphobia
Low blood pressure
Generalised anxiety disorder
Infertility
Allergies
First pains
It’s all in your head
Be active they said
Remain positive instead
Overlooked by many
Medication, plenty
Your body aching
Assistance dog training
Life’s changing
Goals become smaller
Inside I am screaming
Another disorder
Waking moments feel like eternity,
When pain swallows the serenity,
Everyday life is no longer the same,
"You seem to have Chronic pain"
Doctors can't find the cause or solution,
I cry and scream,
Who is there to blame,
Not everything can be proven,
but not everyone believes,
"Its nothing but laziness",
I scream mercy but they are all merciless,
Chronic pain,
Feeling shame,
Takes me away,
From the ones I love,
The person I was feels like a shadow,
The person I am now feels like a husk,
Chronic, makes me feel stuck,
The words "Are you okay?"
makes me feel sick to my stomach,
So I put on a smile and lie,
and say I'm fine,
its just "chronic".
Fibromyalgia pain, unbearable at times
Is only good for turning in to rhymes
Bending is a problem with pain throughout
Regular twitches and spasms of doubt
Obnoxious frenemy causing woe
Morning stiffness from head to toe
Yawning constant every day
Aggressive and hard to keep at bay
Ligaments, tendons, muscles all sore
Gastro tracts feeling poor
Insomnia making for sleepless nights
Anxiety, depression, memory fights
Swollen glands, shooting pain
Temperature swings, damn migraine
Ribs hurt, back aches, itchy skin
Out of order, BUT not giving in
Nerves all frazzled, Fibro is rough
Gives us hell, BUT we are Tough.
and then buzzing starts below skin
shocks shoot along veins
I hold my arm
a different pain today
it buckles the knee
grinds the shoulder
it burns the elbow
gnaws the hip
I rub my back
a deep breath and sigh
ricochets ribcage-aches like children
playing at pinball machines
another new pain today
another old pain tomorrow
the everywhere everyday unsurprising surprise
and a spasm grips within muscle
Good Morning Pain
Another day, Old Friend
Silent and invisible
Besides the cracking of my joints
and the pounding in my head
Every Day You And Me
I've grown tired of the misery
Its easier to sleep you away
At least I can't feel you then
But there you are the next morning
You follow me around
With claws in my shoulders and neck
And knives in my hips and back
Your murmurs sharp in my brain
I can't remember when I didn’t ache
When my head didn't throb
When my joints weren't sore
When I dreamt of dreams to achieve
Will you haunt me forever
This endless battle
Living or just existing
Goodnight Pain,
see you again tomorrow
No one knows the pain and struggle
we go through every hour of every
day
We are survivors that most others
can definitely truly never say
Our daily lives have been changed
in every possible insane way
Together we can make a stand
and educate and advocate for
Fibromyalgia pain
No living being should be
in a world of hurt and strife
We ALL deserve to live the BEST
and productive life
If you have no suffering and each
day you awake like new
Fall to your knees and thank GOD
above for being you
Don’t look at someone's outer
cover and think they don’t look
like they are in pain
Pain can be masked with a smile,
its not always with a limp and a cane
Be caring and understand that we all
are different and not all the same
To a person hurting and hiding it all Inside, it's such a shame
Tammi Arrowood 8-13-2019??
As the circle starts,
Storm clouds appear,
Ahead of the road,
A plenty of a tear.
Muscles scream out as the stars charm the unbroken eyelids of the fit.
Fybro has hit!
Find it hard to sleep, the pain gets deep,
Find it hard to sit, for even a little bit,
Find it hard to hold, painful to the touch,
Find it hard to communicate, this hurts so much,
Just want a normal life is the cry,
Anything I will try!
The Drs look to the sky, not knowing why,
The drugs get eaten like pie,
Nothings working as the nights keep me tossing and turning,
Finally, I find what I am yearning,
The release of the pain,
Its been driving me insane,
A week later, fingers crossed I am in the clear,
O no! Storm clouds appear,
As the circle starts.
No one ever told me when I grew up things would be this hard.
No one ever knew.
Everyone just took one day at a time, being a puppet and working for lard.
No one ever knew.
Now here I am, living my life day to day in sickness more than health.
Who never knew?
I have to get out of here, my children my health.
I knew.
It has taken over my body, it has made me incapable.
I know now.
The pain I ensure everyday has never been measurable.
I know now.
This is my life, this is how it'll end.
I'm very confused.
Where's my Angel that the heavens sent?
I no longer know.