why?

(a story in Senryus) I can’t figure out why everything doesn’t happen like I want. I brush my teeth and floss regularly, I wash my roommates dishes, I am generous, I don’t run in the hallways, I do my homework. I support pizza places, Amazon - I spur the economy semi-sleepless night no worries, but tossing with no sleep - what’s with that? My health app says I slept three hours, four minutes. I’m low on toothpaste. five-thirty AM Lisa and I ran four miles on the gym treadmills Banana/ peanut butter/ cacao/ oat milk/ chia seed breakfast smoothie. I've been in love with styling dresses, layered over flared jean pants. My first look was a tulle dress over sequined jeans and tan kitten heels. The winter hook-up scene is in full swing - not for me, I’m like second base. I just lay around, in sad, unfettered, boredom - a crying shoulder for others, I’m not a skanky whore, like [censored] - try penicillin - ß??ç? Since, as you can see, I am, for all intents and purposes - perfect. I can’t figure out why everything doesn’t happen like I want. . . Webster: Unfettered: not controlled or restricted ß??ç? is NOT a word, it’s a set of Greek symbols - if you read something in them, well, that’s just coincidental, isn’t it?