What We Had Was Real

Tonight, it happened all over again I was just lying here, when– it hit me just like before. Only this time it was more –intense As thoughts of you filled my head suddenly I sat up in bed, and– it made me so mad to know you had me this bad But, what else could I do? I'd already tried, everything I knew and still, I couldn't stop thinking about you God, what kind of fool am I? You've already moved on You're with another guy Yet I'm still beating myself up wondering what, wondering why Though it only lasted a fortnight you were the one who did everything right Said you knew in your heart, you'd found love and wanted to give it a start But, I held steady to I wasn't ready. I mean how could it be? It was all just happening way too fast for me Then you said, I hadn't done anything wrong That it was just time to move along, and I too stupid to know merely stood there and watched you go Now I understand the pain in your eyes and why you wept when we said our good-byes It's the same pain my heart has felt ever since you left and I haven't dealt with the fact I love you and want you back I know it was my fault, I realized too late. Now I'm alone and filled with self-hate. So, I sit here counting stars in the sky, wondering why I ever let you leave. When I know how I feel and I truly believe, what we had was real