What It’s Like Without You

Knots in my stomach never untied I feel them tighten more and more each time tightness in my chest inside and out tears as they are swell up in my eyes waiting to be released Trapped in a loop of trying to move on and trying to look back on the past wondering how you would guide me through it The way you would help me through bad times now having to go through it alone the way memories feel so long ago the moments we shared are now told as reminders of your dwindling presence and not reminisces of the experiences shared Over time some days feel lighter and the knots loosen but still my stomach is knotted the tightness in my chest fades the pain is still there my tears dried up doesn’t mean there isn’t more to come These feelings don’t disappear they are there watching over like a shadow just how you watch over me the question isn’t to move on it’s to remember and look forward Its not a crime to mourn you even if years have passed and seasons have changed missing you feels like a lifetime and a second at the same time Even if my memories with you are distancing us with time they are still in my heart loving you will never go away even though your not here anymore our love is unbreakable through journeys and time