Wasted Love

I feel the absence(distance,vacancy) of you like a black hole in my heart It turns out you felt nothing right from the start I can't get the thoughts of you out of my head Constantly thinking about the things you said Its driving me insane repeating it in my brain (Over and over it just wont wash away.) Is it true that you've moved on from me? Did you even want us to be? And did it secretively.. Right infront of me Right when things got hard you gave up trying While I'm over here with red eyes from crying I hoped that to you I still mattered But know you want her and my heart is shattered I have to go on smiling like I am ok But without you it's hard to get through the day I'm over here drowning, but you don't even know I'm not sure if it would be better to let it show Is it better to let you see me in pain Or pretend I'm unaffected, and act the same They all ask me why it hurts so bad Because you were the best thing I almost had Now its like one big mystery, who are you really. what would you do? The things you said meant so much to me I just wish you had left my heart be I think the reason why it hurts so bad Is because you're the closest thing to love I've ever had. No its like im empty, with nothing. Its like u stole everything with inside me. An left me as if I were nothing .. .. An all u can do is look n laugh at me .. .. . Now im sitting here looking like a fool.. Rethinking all those believable lies u told. An now seeing da truth they hold. A Waste of time is what it comes down to. Your a stranger that I though I once knew