Tied down

How long will I have to be here? I have been here since as long as I can remember Tried to move on But I am trapped to I am tied to you Fate and destiny doesn't want me to move on I am on a collar You pull me back It chocks me - I feel like I can't stand it any longer I can't breath - I am going more under There have been attempts The leasehold is part of me I am tied up in a straight jacket and I need that assistance I am defenceless without it Can't look after myself I have tried it Have the ambition but not the heart Have the desire but not the will I have the dream but not the reality Can't do this much longer - feels like it's slowly killing me A torturous death A long death It is slow and it is painful and everyone can see it It wears on me - it holds me back - it tires me Can't take this much longer How much longer can I be here?